My Writing

There is day as well as night. Either you’re complete or empty. There is true joy and there is false happiness. It’s impossible to have both. You’re either the light or the darkness. Its hopeless to be both.

There is no light in the darkness, and no darkness in the light. One consumes the other. Never do they stay side by side at peace for long. It’s all a matter of which is more unyielding. Which has the power to overcome the other. Could light brighten up darkness or does darkness always dim the light?

Just wrote this….

He never gives up on me. His love is so great and unconditional, my mind cannot wrap around the depth. He fills me up with a joy like no other. No one else could compare. He accepts me and looks passed my imperfections and sees the beauty that is within. My God is all I need. He is truly wonderful, amazing, awesome, magnificent…no words could begin to explain. He’s… everything.

I wrote this October 20, 2009. Sorry all my writing isnt posted in order. Sometimes I write them on paper and other times I just email or text message myself with them. This one was hidden in a text message I had sent myself.   It is what it is. No need to look into it much. I suppose I was confused then, worrying about things that only God knows.

Edifying and Insightful. Easy. Comfortable but at times Awkward. Exciting yet terrifying. Clear but vague. Is it obvious or is the vision clouded? Content or wanting to know? Natural path or with a slight push? Standing still or taking a first step? Yes or no? Better or worse? Is neutral even an option without being sure? Wait for the unknown or wait knowing.

This is super short. It just came to mind when I was changing my status. I’m going to expand it soon. But for now…. here it is.  About Jesus!

Loving Him because He loved me first. Trusting in Him because He looked out for me before I even knew He was there. Grateful for everything!

I wrote this September 28, 2009 with my bff in mind, but now when I read it over, I see that this goes more for Jesus than anyone. He is my #1 best friend, ever. This plus so much more goes to Him.  Soon I’m going to start writing more about Him.

Crowded room. Smiles and silly jokes all around. My laughter is real and sincere. No one sees the change, yet you see past it and know. You’re there always. Your words and hugs keep me grounded.

I’m an open book. I cannot lie or hide my emotions. It is clearly written on my face, actions and even my words. My common sense abandons me. The indifference I have with others is nonexistent with you. My attempts at vague responses soon become awkward ramblings.

I keep people at a distance so I could judge their character; and am unconcerned about who leaves . The ones that stay are the friends I hold dearly. I don’t do in-between very well.

But with you, it’s somewhat different. I do not express what I truly want to communicate clearly; therefore my words become confusing rambles full of mixed signals.

I promise things are not always like this with me. I’m not always this annoyingly complex.  I suppose this is what happens when someone who is usually so expressive, attempts keeping something hidden.

This is me not wanting to push a new friend away, but doing it subconsciously nonetheless.

Self explained, but if you don’t understand, its speaking to Jesus and standing firm in Him, nothing else.

You’re all I need to keep me together. In You I find salvation and forgiveness. You love me unconditionally, give me everything I need, when I need it. Why look for more when all will be handed to me at the right time? You healed my wounds and gave me a new heart. help me guard it.

This is completely random.  This made complete sense as I wrote it but when I read it back it looks more like an outline to me. Maybe one day I will come back and edit, or maybe it’s meaning to leave ideas to the imagination.

I personally love the nighttime. Everyone who knows me, knows this. Especially if outside watching the stars, I would def be the first to suggest laying  on the grass at night or the last to sleep on a movie night. This is just expressing two views of one thing as simple as night.

So beautiful and peaceful. Intimate and quiet. Warm or cold. Brightness or darkness. Laughter or tears. Alone or accompanied. Filled with loved ones or loneliness. Unforgettable memories or empty thoughts. The beginning of the end. Another type of day or just shadows.